How Great is our GOD

I thought a lot today about whether I truly felt ready to post and if I did what exactly was I going to say, and I have decided to just write as I feel. I know God will allow this to come across the way it is meant to be. Tears flood my eyes as I think back through the years and even to this very minute, I have used this blog to try and inspire those that feel there is no hope and to trust in God always but at the same time I have been one of those people that at very many times has felt a loss of hope. a lot of times I may seem like a broken record but let me tell you, this is no easy journey, sometimes it gets so hard I truly forget to give it to God remembering how dear I really am to him. I want to write this prayer as it is in my heart: Lord you are the Lord that healeth thee you are the Lord who never leaves us nor forsakes us you are the ever lasting father I trust in you this day not only with my life but with my heart, with my health, my husband and most importantly my children. Lord so many times I feel like this weight is too much to bare and I cry till I feel near numb, Lord I know you know the desires of my heart and oh God I pray this day you carry me through. Lord please Pick me up and carry me through because I can no longer use my own feet to walk as the pain is too much to bare. You are my Lord and Savior you have always brought me through even the worst of trials even when there seemed to be no other way. I will always continue to trust in you. I thank you in advance for my healing I thank you in advance for my sons healing, I thank you for sending your son on the cross so that I may have eternal Life. Lord use me this day to be a witness to someone in need, I may grow weary but with your strength I can overcome these things that are thrown my way. In Jesus Name i pray Amen:

Ok I really felt I had to do that, today I was driving home very weary and in I was crying out to God "WHY?" I decided to turn on one of my favorite songs "How Great is our God" and let me tell you I broke I have been playing it nonstop for the past hour and just worshiping. Even the strongest of people suffer many many things but it if you let those things knock you so far down and you down get back up then you will be defeated. I've heard it said many times I may get knocked down but only to my knees well i've been knocked to my knees but I willingly fall on my face before the father. I am so grateful for God's peace, for it sustains me and without it I wouldn't be able to face tomorrow. So glad to share that part of my heart.

Isaac is set to go for his last surgery (for a while anyway) and as heart wrenching as those always are to face I'm rejoicing at the strength God has given to him both spiritually and now physically. His teacher was here the other day and she hasn't seen him in about 6 months and she was completely amazed at the progress he has made and how much stronger he is (THANK YOU JESUS) I love my children so much and though at times it can get hard raising 6 children, today while I was worshiping God reminded me that they are his gift to me and WOW what an awesome gift they are. I don't want to keep babbling on and on but I have to share with you one more thing........From past post you know I have had several severe back issues which have led to chronic pain and Kidney stones (God is in Control) and I will continue to stand on that always. but I had to share this....... a couple of weeks ago I went in on an emergency appointment due to some extreme pelvic pain, the Doctor did a pregnancy test and she came back to tell me I was pregnant ( I bursted in tears) and exclaimed how can I be pregnant I only have one ovary and use protection (Sorry for too much info.) and she said I'm sorry but your test is positive and I think you are having a tubal pregnancy. Well you could only imagine the horror and emotions I faced at that moment. AT that point she sent me to have an emergency ultra sound which also confirmed I was having a tubal pregnancy, on my way to the hospital to have an emergency very invasive surgery the doctor calls me and says she made a mistake and my test was really negative! (WOW who does that) I ended up in ER the rest of the night diagnosed with a few different infections. Now I'm on antibiotics and following up with another ultrasound in a couple of weeks because they feel there may be some damage to my other ovary. Let me tell you the enemy is a liar he will try and come at you every angle to trip you up anyway possible. I'll wrap this up now, but always remember things will come our way that we aren't going to like and may even seem unbearable at times but remember who is in control, THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY the God who sent his Son so that we could have eternal life the God who sent his Son so that we may have healing in Jesus name. Know who you are in Christ and don't ever let your situation tell you different. Stand firm in Christ Jesus. Amen and Amen :o) PRAISE GOD!!!!! HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD!!!!!!!!