Never giving up Faith

First of all I have started a blog special just for my brother, I haven't updated my own personal blog in a while. So now I'm taking the time to do so. Oh where oh where do I begin, I have thought of several ways to start this post and different things I wanted to say in it. I have decided just to write what is on my heart, straight from my heart (emotions and all). First of all Isaac has been doing really good he went a couple of

weeks ago for his Pam Treatment. He is able to get up and off of the couch all on his own, and get this....... the other day I caught him trying to come up the stairs and told him not to do it because it is very dangerous. Well did that stop him? It sure didn't! Don't ask me how because I am at a loss for words and can only imagine the journey it was for him to get up those stairs, but he did it...all the way to the top and to my room. I was upset and proud all at the same time. He has also started weight baring and is able to stand up supporting about a good 70% of his weight, it's a matter of time before he is walking. Isn't that awesome?!?! The God we serve is so faithful his promises are real and my son will be walking real soon in Jesus Name. The kids are all doing so good, Frankie still has his heart set on joining the Marines and as hard as it is for me to let go I have to trust and know that God will take care of my children as he always has done and continues to do. Mia is such a little sassy pants, she seems to have the "Only Child" Syndrome which must have a lot to do with her being the baby of the bunch. Reanna is growing up way too fast for my taste and she is so beautiful, witty and full of humor like her dad but on a cooler tip...LOL! Matthew has his days but really has a loving side that makes me smile and happy when he shows it. Alyssa is thinking everyday how she can make it big one day to roll in the dough, we get a kick out of her and know she will put her heart and mind to do some great things just as all our children will do, today I told her honey put God first and he will provide, she looks at me and says "Mom I know I'm just trying to plan on ways to earn money also". All I can say is I'm so blessed I pray that God continues to do his work in me so that I can enjoy the many blessings he has given to me. God is so awesome his love and mercy is good and endures forever. Now to share with you about my brother I have to write here instead of his blog because I am using his blog solely for updates and encouraging tidbits, well on my blog I'm not gonna hold back and be on reserve. On Father's Day my brother was rushed to Kaiser ER. turned out he had sepsis they overly sedated him and didn't take the precautions needed! Because he was so heavily sedated he was suffering from sleep apnea which they did nothing to prevent him from blocking his air passage. Well the following day he stopped breathing and went into cardiac arrest the whole event took a total of 6 minutes before my brother was brought back to us. My mom was in the room and had to bring it to the nurses attention that he had stop breathing. To this day it is very hard for her to get that day out of her head. The neurologist have told his wife, my mom and basically my whole family that there is no hope that he will ever fully come back to us , and he has severe brain damage (That lying Devil!). The only thing they forgot that the Almighty God has the final say and is the ultimate Physician. I went to a family meeting last week and the Doctor said this "When I met Joey he was dead and I brought him back" Now when I hear that I can't help but think how naive some smart people can really be!!! God allowed that Doctor to be used to bring my brother back that Dr was just a vessel to work out the plan of God, if it was God's will for my brother's life to be over then that would have been it, but it wasn't time. God allowed that Doctor to assist my brother back to life. We are going on over a month of him being in the hospital and the doctors have pretty much given up hope on any type of full recovery (again.... God is the almighty Dr and has the final say). I'm typing this right now because earlier I asked Tamra to email me a picture and she did, the tube is out of his nose and he now has a tracheal tube in place with a peg in his stomach for feeding. When she sent me that picture he looked wide awake so I had to make it over there I just had to see him. Let me tell you....this has been right up there with one of the most trying times in my life and as most of you know I have had my fair share of trying times as most of us do. So anyhow I get there and he's sleeping. After a bit of being there he wakes up and his eyes are wide open, I begin to talk to him telling him how much I love him and how much I miss him. He's laying there just looking and then closes his eyes. Ok can I share with you my emotional part..........ok well either way let me say this I know the God I serve and I know that he is the God that healeth thee, he is able to do exceedingly and abundantly. All I can think about is the day I went to the last family meeting and I said this Boldly and without any doubt "My son is here today defying what Doctors said, If I would have listened to the doctors I would have aborted my son because scientifically speaking they said he would die shortly after birth and because of faith and the mighty works God does he is alive today and being a testimony to many people and touching many lives!". Again as I usually state in my blogs I would be lying if I said this doesn't hurt beyond words and if a part of me wasn't completely broken. I am....... I truly am..... and I cried the whole way home. My husbands words to me as he constantly reminds me to see my brother as he will be and to see him as the mighty man of God that is going to come back to us real soon. I cry because it is hard to be patient, I cry because I want to hear Sissy I love you, I cry because I want him to look at me and know he see's me and can respond. I love him dearly and one thing is for certain God is doing some mighty and awesome things through this process.

His wife is truly a loving and wonderful person that I have gotten the pleasure to really get to know. My brother is very blessed to have her in his life. My brother is such an awesome person so full of life,love and personality. When we were younger and he would see my mom or I crying and going through different things, he would be gone for a while and come back with flowers in attempts to cheer us up. He walked me down the isle when I was 18 years old and has always been there for me even when he couldn't physically be here as much because he started his new life with his wife. Now with all of that said do you see why I'm not allowed to blog my emotions on his direct blog? LOL I'm full of emotions but I'm also a faith-filled individual. Not only did God do some awesome things with Isaac and he is continuing to do the work in him today 6 years later but he also spared my oldest son who got really sick several years ago, again defying the Odds and what the doctors said he lived through the sickness and though they said he wouldn't he walked out of that hospital after being there for months. So I tell you this... it doesn't always matter what some of the doctors may say,because God is the ultimate physician. Don't get me wrong, I'm very thankful to the many great dr's out there but regardless we must continue to live by faith and not by site. I was 4 months pregnant when they told me Isaac wouldn't live past birth and faith had to be present for 5 additional months in order for us to see God's promises come to pass, and here we are 6 years later and God is still revealing things to us and still continuing a work in him. Waiting is never easy but it is all God's timing, if he did it on our timing then the many things that he is allowing to take place wouldn't be taking place. This is hard yes, and that's why I'm sitting here typing up this blog because as broken as I feel I have even greater faith and trust in God and know that he is ABLE and I praise his mighty name and thank him in advance for all the thing he is continuing to do. Ok I know my blogs are always all over the place but this is as real as I can be, straight from my heart and if you take anything with you let it be this scripture: He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.Matthew 17:20 That is one of my all time favorite scriptures. A mustard seed is very small, it is not even required for us to have great faith but even a little bit of faith and God is able to work. For those of you that struggle with faith and doubt ask God to help you with your doubt and to increase your faith. Say this Prayer Dear Lord I ask that you forgive me of my sins, I know that you are able to do the impossible, Father God I pray that you help me with my doubt and unbelief Father God fill me with your peace and give me the faith to get through this situation. I know you will never leave me nor forsake me and I thank you Jesus in your mighty name I pray Amen

That's it for now until later I pray many Blessings your way
~ Rocky