On my way

Alright so let me just cut to it, in the past month I have been on some medication that my dr had me on to help me through the back pain, & severe pain from kidney stones and it made me gain 15+ pounds. I have slowly weaned off and it's been almost 2 weeks now. I am making sure to drink lots of water as this has been a very big struggle for me in the past, I have also started oil pulling for a few weeks now, which just those 2 things alone have helped me tremendously. Just this past week I added green smoothies to the mix, consisting of spinage, kale, berries, ice, almond milk and a bannana. Discipline has always been a problem for me, I'm just a very unorganized, all over the place person who was use to functioning in auto pilot, so much so my brain was never really processing things the way it really should. It's been like that for more than several years now. Well with these small changes I've been slowly incorporating in to my regimen I have decided I might just be becoming disciplined enough that I can start a real weight loss journey. The biggest thing that usually holds me back is the fear of failure, because this pain has been such an overwhelming battle with my day-day health it's so hard to commit to anything. Ask anyone close to me and they will tell you I don't even like r.s.v.p.ing to events just because I never know how I will feel. But with holding onto my faith & complete trust in God I know that hope comes in the morning and I can truly trust in him to see me through any and all situations that come my way. So here I go I have purchased the 21 day fix and shakeology. I have so many friends and family members that are selling this and I just felt bad buying from anyone person, maybe that's wrong thinking :0( but either way here I go. I'm gonna do it. Greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world. Over the past 7+ years I have endured and overcame pancreatitis, the removal of 1 ovary and burning of my felopian tubes due to multiple cyst, I have also had chronic back pain from herniated disk w/the early onset of osteo arthritis, & battle frequent kidney stones, that is just the many health battles I alone have faced. We have endured as a family many ups and down through a very broad range of circumstances. I choose not to be afraid of failure for if I hit a bump in the road we pick up the pieces and keep moving forward. I got this because God has me! Will write back soon to update you! Much love and many prayers! ~Rocky